About Hope...

Since the 1st of July, I leave home at around 6.15 am by ojeg (motorcycle taxi) to go to the office. So usually if all goes well, I get to the O at around 07:15 am.  Usually my other morning glory friends are Ratri and Satrya.  But Satrya's left us for Bali now; so its only Ratri and I.

I was really pleasantly surprised that Ratri set aside some time to talk to me last Friday morning.  She shared with me her opinion on coffee, food and dieting...Dieting being of real interest to me since it's such an on-going occurence.

Focusing on the subject of dieting, our conversations turned to lifestyle and life in general.  And  of that I received a valuable message:  "You cannot turn down Hope Winny.  You just can't", Ratri said.  Wow...

Now you know how sometimes, words that are conveyed to you resignate a certain chyme that rings through your whole physical and emotional being? I always say that I believe this is how God speaks to us.  That because God cannot talk to us directly, he picks certain people and events to answer our deepest questions, our prayers and other things we save in our hearts and minds. Thoughts and desires we don't necessarily want other people to know.  And sometimes, you'll be surprised at who or what God chooses to convey that message.

I gave up hoping a long time ago...since my divorce to be exact.  It hasn't been easy for me in the years after that either.  And it wasn't until a very devastating and trying period in my life last year, that I actually decided I wanted to hope again...to reclaim my life. So I can stand again; so I can experience a sense of rebirth. 

Of all the things that Ratri shared with me, one of the things I got was: I can't really say I want to reclaim a life, if I don't dare to hope again.  "Instead of seeing it as a fearful unknown, why don't you see it as an exciting unchartered map? Where you can decide on what you want to put on your map," she said to me.  *sigh* Wow! if coffee hadn't electrify my grey matter, Ratri just jolted it on me. GBU Ratri, I thank you kindly.

Most of all, Thank you God.  Alot of times I really don't get what You are trying to teach me; I don't understand what good You are trying to give me.  So I'm very grateful for the people and things that You choose for me.  God is Almighty, God is Loving.